How I Met My Abusive (ex) Boyfriend

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  • Here’s all the proof you need. This is the “report” the officer filed.

    illymationillymationPrije 6 mjeseci
    • @Josua seke 10 official yeah i trust and believe what she’s saying. i’m just surprised that some people didn’t.

      NateStorm12NateStorm12Prije 9 dana
    • @NateStorm12 dude illy was telling the truth bruh i trust illy

      Josua seke 10 officialJosua seke 10 officialPrije 9 dana
    • what the hell, people didn’t believe you?

      NateStorm12NateStorm12Prije 9 dana
    • F your privacy. Lol

      Mister EvroMister EvroPrije 11 dana
    • Got it.

      Alan J.Alan J.Prije 12 dana
  • #### haris

    Living BananaLiving BananaPrije 20 minuta
  • Wait uor bi I love u still

    payton neufeldpayton neufeldPrije 7 sati
  • Honestly knowing myself I’d tell him I’m not gay

    Patient St. ChrisPatient St. ChrisPrije 7 sati
  • I think Art spots is still a website

    Cali SmithCali SmithPrije 11 sati
  • Im sorry. But at this point..if someone threatens to kill themselves for something dumb or to manipulate me..then bye. Cause im not ever gonna allow myself to fall for that

    killuas_chocolate.robotskilluas_chocolate.robotsPrije 15 sati
  • I am I’m not 13 I’m I’m. Seven

    Logan MosesLogan MosesPrije 16 sati
  • "Age is a Number" And i dont have a response to that

    LaSandia CHIDORRISLaSandia CHIDORRISPrije 17 sati
  • i just got a chill and flashbacks to a evil friend that treated me like s###...

    Henryis7thson HenryHenryis7thson HenryPrije 20 sati
  • I live in North Carolina and it’s so small that I’m surprised that she mentioned it lol

    BeautifulKylieLove JBeautifulKylieLove JPrije dan
  • "AGe iS JuST A nuMBer" And life is just a circle if living and dying in a depressed world filled with chaos with no purpose whatsoever! Sorry, I just need my medication.

    I'mToastYTI'mToastYTPrije dan
  • "Age is just a number" Me: So is 9-1-1

    JiksaeJiksaePrije dan
  • this is beyond crazy. so manipulative of him.

    Spencer GraySpencer GrayPrije dan
  • Age is just a number: *police are just people*

    AC with friendsAC with friendsPrije dan
  • "Age is just number" *and a knife is just an object*

  • Ohhhh if only I had seen this a year ago 😀

    Grape JuiceGrape JuicePrije dan
  • this is disgusting this guy is disgusting

    anderwr globermenanderwr globermenPrije 2 dana
  • this sex threw the phone

    anderwr globermenanderwr globermenPrije 2 dana
  • It’s just the icing on the f**king cake that he has the idiot link pfp

    Pugking 18Pugking 18Prije 2 dana
  • I just like to say *Thank You.* I was 12 to 13 when everything and *More* Happened to me. Thanks to your Videos. I would Have Committed Suicide. I Love You. *Thanks.* Even old Videos, I'm Still watching Them. ❤️💌❤️

    Sequence FulfilledSequence FulfilledPrije 2 dana
  • I am so sorry about that .

    Kyla GomezKyla GomezPrije 2 dana
  • That’s what happened to my lil sis in roblox she is only 7 she said no and he banned her from roblox

    tiffany ltiffany lPrije 2 dana
    • I’m am sorry sis

      tiffany ltiffany lPrije 2 dana
  • Who else is just ten and is absolutely TERRIFIED

    Mayar SalehMayar SalehPrije 2 dana
  • 3:05 Me who plays singleplayer minecraft: Dang i'm lonely

    Maximilian Ananta XavierMaximilian Ananta XavierPrije 2 dana
  • I feel so bad for illy but I love fuck ya privacy part

    Gavin trys to gameGavin trys to gamePrije 2 dana
  • Oh WOW,.......that's relatable

    Damian Altamirano OntiverosDamian Altamirano OntiverosPrije 2 dana
  • 6:50 fAwK yOuR pRiVeCy {btw I’m really sorry that you had to go through this}

    _MehPlayz__MehPlayz_Prije 2 dana
  • Age is just a number* yes it is and so is the amount of times she regretted this for harris a number is one thing there are billions of numbers and there are also BILLIONS OF NUMBERS FOR HOW WRONG THIS IS.

    Miles AnimatesMiles AnimatesPrije 2 dana
  • age is not age jail is jail love is not love person space is personal space 😌

    Sugar tea シSugar tea シPrije 3 dana
  • I hate this and I never knew about it I hope nobody that reads this goes through this.

    Adilia MiradilAdilia MiradilPrije 3 dana
    • i hate how people harass kids there only kids

      Adilia MiradilAdilia MiradilPrije 3 dana
  • Alright hackers do your thing guys

    Oscar ZOscar ZPrije 3 dana
  • Lemme rephrase... I “Dated”... *HISOKA MORROW*

    『Just a Zoldyck』『Just a Zoldyck』Prije 3 dana
  • “Age is just a number” *And prison is just a place

    Garrett's CornerGarrett's CornerPrije 3 dana
  • "Age is just a number." It's actually a word.

    Aaron WatanabeAaron WatanabePrije 3 dana
  • H

    You have hair on Your screenYou have hair on Your screenPrije 4 dana
    • @You have hair on Your screen u did it

      Jonny the LemonJonny the LemonPrije 2 dana
    • @Jonny the Lemon what are we doing lol

      You have hair on Your screenYou have hair on Your screenPrije 2 dana
    • @You have hair on Your screen *e*

      Jonny the LemonJonny the LemonPrije 2 dana
    • @Jonny the Lemon my apologies

      You have hair on Your screenYou have hair on Your screenPrije 2 dana
    • @You have hair on Your screen no

      Jonny the LemonJonny the LemonPrije 2 dana
  • the fact that it's called grooming makes it even more gross. *shivers*

    NotOverHere right?NotOverHere right?Prije 4 dana
  • Hey Maybe stop cursing on your videos?

    Fnaf WorldFnaf WorldPrije 4 dana
  • I am so sorry

    Sweet ThingsSweet ThingsPrije 4 dana
  • Everyone: omg! He is the worst! We need to prevent this!! Me: your free trial of life has ended. *gets bat and bag*

    Todd LoweryTodd LoweryPrije 4 dana
  • 90% of comments - “AgE Is JuSt A NuMbEr” 9% of comments - “That Man Should Go To Hell 1%other

    DoomsyDaysDoomsyDaysPrije 4 dana
  • age is just a number volcanic eruptions is just a fountain of fire

    bored afbored afPrije 4 dana
  • something like that almost happend to me i was 10

    Cali BakerCali BakerPrije 5 dana
  • “Age is just a number” Alright then, ig 911 is also just a number

    Diego HernandezDiego HernandezPrije 5 dana
    • copied

      Lucas MichaudLucas MichaudPrije 2 dana
    • @Liam Miller I mean it was not, I just commented and I have not seen sum one else say it soooooo

      Diego HernandezDiego HernandezPrije 4 dana
    • copied

      Liam MillerLiam MillerPrije 4 dana
  • I'm 8

    maria sanchezmaria sanchezPrije 5 dana
  • So are we all rewatching this? Lol

    Lauren UwULauren UwUPrije 5 dana
  • It’s so easy to judge others when you have not been through what they have. So please be kind to others. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    Holly MilesHolly MilesPrije 5 dana
  • Harley quinn mode activated 6:47

    ZeroZeroPrije 5 dana
  • this happened to me so like at the beginning he grooming phase i just logged out of ALL apps and now i don't use social media

    Emaan FaisalEmaan FaisalPrije 5 dana
  • Oh god.... i searched for him on facebook. And based on his posts, i think that's the guy....

    FlavinhaakFlavinhaakPrije 5 dana
  • U r the best

    Joey RodriguezJoey RodriguezPrije 5 dana
  • Hello i hope this guy sees this video and he realises he did a big shit

    Rebecca RuthRebecca RuthPrije 6 dana
  • Damn FKN HARIS

    R MR MPrije 6 dana
  • 8:41 they sent that prob around the time I was waking up on my 5th bday

    My123monMy123monPrije 6 dana
  • I’m 11 years old. And I know about this kinda stuff, and I’m smart to not fall into anyone’ traps Also I think I’m safe for now because most of my online friends are girls younger than me (around the age of 10) and I’m also a girl To everyone reading this who is young (like elementary age) if anyone asks for your age then say “I’m not telling you.” And If anyone tells you they will kill themself if you dont do something, just blocked them. And if anyone tells you to send nudes, then tell your mom/dad/guardian, report them, and block them People like that shouldn’t exist, they suck

    My123monMy123monPrije 6 dana
  • I thought I was going to be the only one in this world that happened to these things to an abuser, friend I love you qwq

    Dul SenseiDul SenseiPrije 6 dana
  • I feel bad for her

    Nicolas NasenaNicolas NasenaPrije 6 dana
  • xd

    BetaNickBetaNickPrije 6 dana
  • Me: im 9 :|

    Elida GomezElida GomezPrije 6 dana
  • Illy: Who’s here for the chaos!!!! Me: AM HERE FOR THE CHAOS!!!!

    -Tea Leaf--Tea Leaf-Prije 6 dana
  • It's weird that this vid has 12 mill views and you only have 1 mil 🤨🤔

    Jack GrahamJack GrahamPrije 6 dana
  • "Age is just a number" Ok fine, here's a bunch of numbers. James divide your age by 2 and 7 rule TM 17/2 is 8 1/2 and we will round up to 9 9+7 is 16 or 15 1/2 if you don't wanna round , so if your 17 the bare minimum you should be dating is 15 1/2 according to this Tldr; Stay the Fuck away from 13 year olds creep

    DDboss 2000DDboss 2000Prije 6 dana
  • Ilyssa, he was a possessive ex-boyfriend. He took your attention. He didn't care about you. He used you and I'm really ashamed of him. I do feel you, what you've been through. People can be so selfish just for their own needings. I'm glad you escaped him. I mean that'd be very exhausting mentally and emotionally. Have a phat day!

    Emin OkurEmin OkurPrije 7 dana
  • I’m scared from this series

    Raze SpawnerRaze SpawnerPrije 7 dana
  • this video mad me so mad because i hate people like this guy i just wanna say this guy is an absolute punk who need to be put in prison for life people like him dont deserve freedom

    Jonathan HuffJonathan HuffPrije 7 dana
  • The only thing I like about haris He is going to die

    Gil ForemanGil ForemanPrije 7 dana
  • And kids this is why Roblox has chat tags 2021: me the chalk eater

    Gil ForemanGil ForemanPrije 7 dana
  • This is so sad I'm going into middle school next year and I hope that doesn't happen to me I hope things are looking better for you in the new year 2021

    Lydia CharlesLydia CharlesPrije 7 dana
    • This doesn't happen to a large percentage of people, but it definitely isn't discussed enough. Middle school may suck, but you can make it through. (Honestly, I'm just hoping the same for high school.) I'm here if you need to talk.

      JactressJactressPrije 6 dana
  • *Wow...*

    Cringey DorkoCringey DorkoPrije 7 dana
  • dude u should have this to your parents

    Shlok MimaniShlok MimaniPrije 7 dana
  • i want to give you a big hug as a friend

    Shlok MimaniShlok MimaniPrije 7 dana
  • I was literally 15 when a 17 year old started dating me ... For 3 years. I'm glad it wasn't just me. I was MISERABLE ily. I hope we both are doing so much better now 💔❤

    Emily PettetEmily PettetPrije 8 dana
  • I’m here for the chaos!! C:

    Tine PetsTine PetsPrije 8 dana
  • Being a 10 year old and watching this i will be careful on the internet now, I hope you’re doing SO much better now after making this video cause it’s talking about something you don’t want to. I don’t know why I found this entertaining but I swear if I see someone named Harris I will block them either way

    ꧁Floof Studios꧂꧁Floof Studios꧂Prije 8 dana
  • "Age is just a number." And a death sentence is just two words.

    ZeBRUHZeBRUHPrije 8 dana
    • Dude, stop doing these for likes

      Just a ValleyJust a ValleyPrije 6 dana
  • Age is just a number And jail is just a place Also just how they type made it ridiculous to know what they were saying

    ᯽あきら, アキラ᯽᯽あきら, アキラ᯽Prije 8 dana
  • I stay up until 5am every night

    FireBoy 473FireBoy 473Prije 8 dana
  • Bruh srpelo made a parody of your thumbnail

    Crunch_nowCrunch_nowPrije 8 dana
  • Thanks for teaching a generation about things like this. It’s really helpful and now I can look out for these things if I ever actually start talking to people online

    Pixen ChanPixen ChanPrije 8 dana
  • I'm here for the chaos lol 😂

    Kevin'Tee,T'TroyTaylorJr KTTTJR Kevo KK47Kevin'Tee,T'TroyTaylorJr KTTTJR Kevo KK47Prije 8 dana
  • The beginning of the video lol 😂

    Kevin'Tee,T'TroyTaylorJr KTTTJR Kevo KK47Kevin'Tee,T'TroyTaylorJr KTTTJR Kevo KK47Prije 8 dana
  • zoe levern

    noornoorPrije 8 dana
  • Im nine and im addicted to your vids but I've been watching them for a day

    Indie FBIndie FBPrije 8 dana
  • Story timeeee!!!! Some dude wanted pics of me so I blocked him.. but that memory was still.. kinda scary and very disgusting. One day in school my teacher was talking about people that...want to be like that. That broke me down and made me sad for the rest of the day and remember I was just nine...YES NINE!! But luckily my teacher helped me out. And I’m definitely good now. Also if you don’t know I’m older now so it didn’t happen like...3 days ago no. It was a year ago I’m OK now. If you worried about me or something.

    •Lemon_ Girl••Lemon_ Girl•Prije 8 dana
    • I’m so sorry that happened to you I’m glad blocked them though

      Deep the SeawingDeep the SeawingPrije 8 dana
  • I don t have friend online

    Kai WebbKai WebbPrije 9 dana
    • Sad

      Deep the SeawingDeep the SeawingPrije 8 dana
    • That I don t know

      Kai WebbKai WebbPrije 9 dana
  • i'm just here from Pelo 😐👍

    Asafe VirgemAsafe VirgemPrije 9 dana
  • Age is just number and prison is just a place

    Isla McFaddenIsla McFaddenPrije 9 dana
  • I feel so bad

    Isla McFaddenIsla McFaddenPrije 9 dana
    • Same

      Deep the SeawingDeep the SeawingPrije 8 dana
  • This comment section is mostly death threats to Harris, not a problem its just weird

    Bryan VieraBryan VieraPrije 9 dana
  • I just realised that the same thing happend to me between the minutes 3.36 till around 4.25

    chantal Winkoopchantal WinkoopPrije 9 dana
  • “Age is just a number” And death is your body malfunctioning.

    Kitsune ClovarianKitsune ClovarianPrije 9 dana
  • oof

    Tropical BlastTropical BlastPrije 10 dana
  • dont be shy LEAK HIS ADRESS LAST NAME AND NUMBER ..i wont “kill him”

    Angel _softie {don't askAngel _softie {don't askPrije 10 dana
    • @Angel _softie {don't ask XD

      hellohelloPrije 8 dana
    • @hello YES PLZ U ARE A SAVIOR

      Angel _softie {don't askAngel _softie {don't askPrije 8 dana
    • lol well i will

      hellohelloPrije 8 dana
  • I’m sorry u had to go through that

    Turtles the Great 96Turtles the Great 96Prije 10 dana
    • Same poor illy

      Deep the SeawingDeep the SeawingPrije 8 dana
  • 12m people watched yet she only has 1.69m

    Doctor ZombotDoctor ZombotPrije 10 dana
  • The same thing happened on Roblox but it’s a death threat

    dominic raydominic rayPrije 11 dana
  • If I see one more "age is just a number" joke, I'm going to scream-

    Cotton CloudCotton CloudPrije 11 dana
  • And if you want YOULL HAVE TO COME THREW US

    Annabelle HsuAnnabelle HsuPrije 11 dana
  • Haris if your reading this I just wanted to say that you are a heretic and you leave illy or US subscribers will defend her especially her youtube friends

    Annabelle HsuAnnabelle HsuPrije 11 dana
  • I live in california

    Annabelle HsuAnnabelle HsuPrije 11 dana
  • I came for thrills...a story of overcoming something... And i DID NOT expect to be hit In my gut so hard

    Baze DayzBaze DayzPrije 11 dana